Today was the first real day of my vacation. As a professor of hospitality and tourism you would figure I should be good at this. Well this is the perfect case of physician heal thy self. I have not quite found the ability to relax yet. I do not know why it is so hard for me to relax and enjoy myself.
In the case of this trip, I have enjoyed being around my parents. I love seeing the way my parents eyes light up when the kids around. I think the kids being here help keeps them young. I love seeing my parents at play with the kids.
Back looking in the mirror again. I keep trying to turn it away because it is easier. Perhaps, so much of my identity is linked to my job. It is so much more than a paycheck to me. It is part of who and what I am. Once, again I am not sure if that is healthy or not. It is curious to consider that so many work so hard to escape what I miss dearly when I am not there.
Do not get me wrong. I am loving spending time with the kids. I realized today that I stopped going on family vacation when I was 15 because I went to work in the summers. If Robyn follows my path, this means that we have this summer and next to enjoy her being with us. So I am not lamenting the opportunity in any way. I am just noting the strange perspectives at least I have. I will have to ponder this more.
Sorry for the rambling but this is a steam of thought post.